小小的世界

每天早上7点左右,

十来岁的样子,

1.30左右偏瘦的个子,

穿着白色校服,

用力甩着马尾的你,

总是拎着装有三只大白馒头的早饭,

然后慢悠悠的,

带着满足的表情,

和我擦肩而过,

走在回家的路上.

要知道,妈妈常说,

小区里很难第二个像我这样年纪,

天天起个大早,混在老年人或家庭妇女中,翻花头为家里人买早饭的小朋友.

所以,一次次在人群中看到与周围那么格格不入的你,

我的喜悦之情是如此难以言语.

而今天,

对你而言,难板的假日,

第一次看到你穿着自己心爱的小裙子,

第一眼我又认出了你,

竟在那里咯吱咯吱的傻笑起来.

不知道可爱如你,

是否也知道有这样一个姐姐的存在,

要知道,每天的这个时间,

我们有着同样满足的心情.

在training center听了关于cpa的briefing,

Senior们除了讲关于自己的备考经历外,

也谈了他们身边的朋友的例子.

比如有senior manager在得知连续考了三年的审计终于通过之后与身边同事热情拥抱,

更有甚者也不知道是开玩笑还是认真地说:今年若考不出三门,就不结婚……

也许CPA在每个人的心里都有不同的分量.

但我唯一清楚的是:

选择一个行业也就选择了一种生活方式.

看着身边的同学都在发下的表格里毅然决然的选了三个勾,也就预示着准备背负三门课的压力.

我突然明白,大家原来都是一类人.

借由我最喜欢的主持人周瑾的话:人如果没有压力,人就会轻飘飘.而她正是痛恨这种感觉的人.

而了解我的人也都知道,

不喜欢被加速折旧的感觉的我,如果可以的话,会宁愿把事情和压力都平均分摊开来~

提早去做将来一定要做的事.

所以咯,要开始新的一段旅程了~

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一屋的晴天娃娃,坑坑洼洼的苹果,煎蛋饼,渐冻人~心星的泪光

戒不掉偶像剧的毒~

但…..

为什么要戒呢?

终于等来了hsbc的拒信，虽然是意料之中的结果，虽然是不曾奢望过的梦想，但，终究有个了解了不是吗？幸好在等待答案的过程中我还有忐忑，如同康康说的，至少我还有曾经那么在乎过，那么用力去争取过的东西，我，还是幸运的……

从考高中，大学，再到现在找工作，我永远都是差一口气。从来只是第二志愿被录取的我是不是该认命呢？或许从不曾有奢望，也就不会有失望，人为什么总是那么傻不容易满足呢？至少，比起那些落空的人来说，我还落在我自己的选择中……

在纠结的时候，一位好友打趣地说道：作为女生，不要把所谓的工作，事业，得失看作是最重要的事，然而，找到那个对的人，才是永远的真正值得在乎的第一志愿。而只要相信，这个志愿会眷顾那些执著，善良的孩子……

私奔去海南，让脑袋，心灵，身体，都放个假……

然后，全新的，自信的，快乐的自我，等待我的第一志愿……

昨天在写日记,确切地说在回忆这一年的事时,突然惊叹我的记忆里,因为那一幕幕是那么的清晰,以至于我用整整两页来做记录.而正因为太多,我想把最感动过我的文字或电影来跟我亲爱的朋友们分享~

Save the best for you all, my dear friends~ With my sincere and deep greetings, wish you all the best and happy new year!

For work:

Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

                                                                                                                                                      From Steve Jobs —2005 commencement address

 For love:

      We do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. Nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could have changed your life.

                                                                                                                                                            From Greys .anotomy. Season 3.25

For life:

   Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear “the brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all”. From now on, you will be travelling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to allow yourself to make the journey.

                                                                                                                                                            From The Princess Diaries

 For everything:

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

                                                                                                                                                         Again, my role model, Steve Jobs, Apple’s CEO

淅沥的雨天,走在萧瑟的街头的我,会莫名的原地蹲下,大声喘气,竭力不让眼泪掉下来.

上了一天网,躺在床上的我,觉得眼睛很涩,很想合眼,但是翻来覆去就是睡不着.

好像又回到中考后等待分数揭晓的时候.那时爸爸帮我租来流星花园来打发时间.只是现在影碟机里的是港剧家好月圆,只是现在在等的是大环境不景气下的offer.

一直喜欢报喜不报忧的我,也终于在朋友面前放开,让她们分享我情绪的起伏,焦虑,没有自信,还好,并不嫌我烦的你们陪我挺过了这一程.对我的好,对我的鼓励,我一定会,一直一直记得.

分别遇到了三个不同类型的香港男,经历了三种不同风格的final interviews.终于在昨天,等到的第一个结果就是positive的,也终于,今年生日的愿望提前实现了一半.

从初中时代就开始听她的节目, “巧帛音乐时尚” “天天点播” “下一站星光”到现在的 “101不眠时间”.这一路上,我会很小女生地给她写信点歌,然后翘首盼望她能在点播中读出我的祝福.也会录下那时每周二晚上的枕边故事,然后慢慢回味,或是推荐给珍爱的朋友一起分享.

就是这样一个感性而又知性的女生,教会我去珍惜,去勇敢,去相信爱.

现在,很开心,她又回归了适合她时段的节目.

突然,昨晚在她节目的最后听到那句曾经感动我的话:

生活,就是当你觉得一切都不会好起来的时候给了你惊喜

My dear friends: Just always remember, The best is yet to come!